"If" Becomes "When"

Wow, I was so sure that I wouldn't ever have to write this post, but here I am, finally coming to terms with it. For about a year now Brad and Chely have been talking about moving, now it is more than talk, they are planning. When Doyle and I talked about it, it was always "if"--now it is "when". And "when" is soon. Brad and Chely will be going to Salt Lake City in February for interviews. I'm taking some time off work to keep the kiddo's while they go. They have already put a deposit down on an apartment, and are making all the arrangements to move. I'm not quite sure how I will handle it. I couldn't sleep last night, I just kept thinking about them not being here. I'm to the point where the tears are always there, just waiting to flow. I cried making breakfast this morning, just talking about them moving. I pray that this will be a good move for them, but I just feel like I'm losing them!!! I will post more about this later, I just can't even bring myself to write about it anymore today.