Wondering Out Loud

What was such a beautiful weekend turned to sadness for me last night. I found out that Kurt and Holly are living apart. Now, this isn't a surprise, I've known for months that it was coming. But when I found out it had actually happened, it hit me like a brick wall. My head is still aching this morning from all the crying. Thank goodness I have today off, not sure how I would be at work today. Adding to everything was the fact that Chely had known for a while, and she didn't tell me. In her defense--yes, it was Kurt or Holly who should tell me, BUT in the past I've told her something in confidence and that confidence wasn't kept. Why when it's something that I've asked her to keep to herself she feels that would be wrong (and tells Brad), but when it's something someone else told her, she feels that it wouldn't be right to tell anyone??? I just don't get it. So, I'm the bad person (once again) and Brad calls Doyle, yes Doyle, not me and tells him how I've upset Chely. To top it off, Doyle says nothing in my defense. I'm just so tired of always being the "bad guy", especially when it's me that has done so much financially to help the kids. I guess I feel used, and unappreciated! I'm not sure that I can get past the fact that Doyle didn't take up for me, even if he thought I was wrong, he should have at least explained to Brad that I was upset and maybe they should put themselves in my position. I see us falling back into the same place we were years ago, I'm always wrong and everything is my fault. Seems like no matter what or how much I do for everyone, it's never enough!