A Post for Doyle!!

Today I'm doing something a little different, a personal post to Doyle! Please continue to read, but remember it's for him, so I hope it doesn't make anyone uncomfortable. You can peek into our relationship today.


Well Babe, here we are, another year together and looking forward to the next. Sometimes in this hectic, crazy world that we live in I take you for granted and today I must apologize for that. You are always there for me, in every way. You know me so well, better than anyone. You know what I need sometimes before I do. I'm sure it's like that for a lot of couples who have been together for so long, but today I'd like to think that we are special! This morning as I drank my coffee I really thought about what our life together has been like, the good, the bad, and the ugly (ha). The longer I thought, the more I realized that the good far out weighs the bad and the ugly is just ugly. We can't go back and change anything, although there's very little that I would. Even in the worst of times I always knew that things would work out and in the end they would be just as they are. We are truly made for each other, yeah I know everyone says that, but I guess when you know, you just know! I knew that night in Chaps that my life had changed--and boy, did it!!! I'm not gonna lie, as I walked down the aisle with my Dad I was thinking "what am I doing", but it was just the fear of the unknown. You know what kind of "family" life I had had before so you can appreciate my fear. Now looking back I wish I had taken the time to enjoy that day a little more. Sometimes I am trying so hard to be perfect that I forget to enjoy life as it happens, that was on full display that day!!! I promise this won't be a year by year replay, I just wanted to mention our start and in doing so I think that we can both see just how far we have come together. In the end it's not about "what" we have, but that we have each other. Sometimes I get to thinking that I'm missing out on something, that I don't have enough friends or that we don't do enough things. That's selfish on my part and I'm trying so hard to stop being selfish! I do realize that I have everything that I need in life, as long as you're my friend, lover, and husband! I wrote something in your card and I'd like to repeat it here--you are the glue that holds me together and I love you now and forever!!!