A Post for Doyle!!

Today I'm doing something a little different, a personal post to Doyle! Please continue to read, but remember it's for him, so I hope it doesn't make anyone uncomfortable. You can peek into our relationship today.


Well Babe, here we are, another year together and looking forward to the next. Sometimes in this hectic, crazy world that we live in I take you for granted and today I must apologize for that. You are always there for me, in every way. You know me so well, better than anyone. You know what I need sometimes before I do. I'm sure it's like that for a lot of couples who have been together for so long, but today I'd like to think that we are special! This morning as I drank my coffee I really thought about what our life together has been like, the good, the bad, and the ugly (ha). The longer I thought, the more I realized that the good far out weighs the bad and the ugly is just ugly. We can't go back and change anything, although there's very little that I would. Even in the worst of times I always knew that things would work out and in the end they would be just as they are. We are truly made for each other, yeah I know everyone says that, but I guess when you know, you just know! I knew that night in Chaps that my life had changed--and boy, did it!!! I'm not gonna lie, as I walked down the aisle with my Dad I was thinking "what am I doing", but it was just the fear of the unknown. You know what kind of "family" life I had had before so you can appreciate my fear. Now looking back I wish I had taken the time to enjoy that day a little more. Sometimes I am trying so hard to be perfect that I forget to enjoy life as it happens, that was on full display that day!!! I promise this won't be a year by year replay, I just wanted to mention our start and in doing so I think that we can both see just how far we have come together. In the end it's not about "what" we have, but that we have each other. Sometimes I get to thinking that I'm missing out on something, that I don't have enough friends or that we don't do enough things. That's selfish on my part and I'm trying so hard to stop being selfish! I do realize that I have everything that I need in life, as long as you're my friend, lover, and husband! I wrote something in your card and I'd like to repeat it here--you are the glue that holds me together and I love you now and forever!!!

A New Post

Wow, I'm not sure where the time went since my last post!! I couldn't believe that's it been over a week. Guess I've been busy, or maybe just a little lazy. Work has been pretty busy this week and this is my Sunday to work so I don't have much of a weekend coming up. Here at home I've picked up my cross stitching again--that seems to be more productive than sitting in front of the computer every night. I have always enjoyed it and I must admit that I haven't really been in the mood to work on my scrap booking so it's been a nice change. I'll post a picture when I get it done!!!

I went to Springfield with Chely and the boys this past Tuesday. Emily was sad that she couldn't go, but I told her that she was a big girl now, and she had to go to school. Of course I brought her home some "treats" so that made it all better. We met Holly for lunch at Zio's, so I finally got to have some really good Chicken Parmesan, it was delicious. It was a nice day! This weekend is "Pioneer Days" here in town so I hope to go to the parade, my nephews usually ride horses in the parade, so it's always fun to see them.

Grandparents Day--1st Grade

Today was nice! In the past few years I have come to realize that few things in life are as important as family--nothing in life can replace the love of a grandchild. That's why today was so important, important for me and important for Emily. Yes, it might just be a couple hours out of our lives, but it mattered--to both of us, and to two other little girls in Emily's class. I went to Grandparents Day not knowing what to expect, and left a better person. I showed up and was seated next to Emily's desk, waiting for lunch and then her teacher began to make the rounds of the room, asking students with Grandparents there to "share" with a child that didn't have a Grandparent there. When she approached Emily and asked, Emily said "yes" (a proud Nana smiled), but even tho Emily chose Trinity to share her Nana with, that still left another little girl at the table without anyone. As we stood to line up for the walk down the hall to the lunch room I leaned over to the other little girl and asked her if she would like to join us also, she smiled (she's missing two teeth right now) and said yes. So Nana Jessie and her "three" girls start down the hall, it's a slow process. Emily's Nana Sharon (Chely's Mom) joins us with Cameron in tow along the way. So now Emily has both Nana's and the other two little girls still just have us. We get our trays, sit down and have an enjoyable lunch. It was actually really good, better than the "school" food I remember from grade school! I get out my phone and we take a few pics of Emily and both Sharon and I and the other girls, I was so proud of Emily for sharing her Nana's. I want to cry now, just remembering how proud she made me feel. It was nothing big, just sitting by someone at a lunch table, but I hope I made a difference today, I feel like I did. After lunch, it was recess time and although Sharon had Cameron she went to the playground with us and stood by as I "played" with the girls. Not only did I have the three girls in tow, I picked up some along the way. The kids were amazed that I could "do" the monkey bars (hey, I missed the final one, but that's pretty good, no other Grandparent was out there doing that), and several kids came up to me after and asked "why did you do that"? I answered "because I could"! Then we continued to go down the "big" slide, hula hoop, etc..... the recess ended with Emily clinging to me, not wanting me to leave and me finally saying that I had to, walking away and turning to see not only Emily but several of the other kids waving to "Nana" as she walked away!! I'm not going to lie, I felt really good, knowing that hopefully I made a difference today.

Playing at work!!

It's Friday afternoon, I'm still at work for another 2 hours and I'm bored stiff!!!! Our work seems to come in spurts today, right now we are in a down time. Who knows what the next 2 hours will bring. Personally, I hope it stays like this. I had another one of my sleepless nights on Wednesday night and I guess I'm still trying to catch up from that. Last night I spent several hours putting together a bio complete with pictures for my 30th class reunion. I'm not the most adept person when it comes to computer workings so it took a while to get it together. The program just wouldn't do what I wanted it to. Then when I finally tried it it's way it worked. Funny how that works, huh!!!

DKK is suppose to meet me after work tonight and take me out for supper. He had to stay in town to help a buddy move, so he thought we should take advantage of him already being in West Plains and plan a night out. Which means we'll eat, then maybe go to Wal-Mart and pick up some groceries and then head home. He wants to eat at Colton's, which sounds really good to me also. They have great steaks and great margarita's but I won't be able to have one, I have to drive myself home since we will both have our vehicles in town. :(

Better make myself get off here and find something constructive to do until 5:30. I'm ready for this week to be over--I need a little at-home time.

A kick in the pants!

Ever have one of those times in your life when you feel out of sorts, and theres no real reason for you to feel that way. Well, I'm in the middle of one right now! I can't for the life of me figure out why I'm feeling this way, nothing has happened that should make me feel like this. Maybe it's a little hangover from the birthday, whatever it is, it needs to hit the road! And yes, I'm pretty much giving myself a little pep talk here---so foul mood take a hike!!!!!!!!!

It's been a while!

It's been a little bit since my last post on my blog--just being lazy, I guess! Some things have been going on in my life and mind, mostly random crap, but some of importance to me anyway! Some are work related and I want to say "Get well, Carolyn--you"ll be missed and hurry back!! A lot of what I'm feeling I can't talk about here, it's a little too personal to put out there for all to see. But hopefully I will get it all worked out. Tonight is the start of the OU football season so I must say: GO SOONERS!!!! Now, on with my life!