To Purge Or Not To Purge

Do you ever get that "wish I could chuck it all" feeling?? I'm not talking about a job, husband, or family---I'm talking about stuff!! My house is very neat but don't look in the closets or under the beds. It's all put away but my closets are full and there is no more room under the beds. Please don't get the wrong mental picture, when I say they is no room under the beds it's because I have totes with "stuff" under there, not just stuff tossed. It's organized stuff but I know that it's there and it's starting to eat away at me. How long am I going to hold on to that favorite pair of jeans hoping I lose a little weight and they fit like they used to?? How long am I going to hold on to that half price wrapping paper that I've had for the last two Christmases and have yet to use? And I haven't even mentioned my real organized mess: my craft/scrapbook room!! I know one of my road blocks to purging is thinking about how much money I spent on this or that, but isn't peace of mind and a feeling of knowing that what you have is what you need worth something? As I get older I think more about what I'll leave behind (I know, it's kinda morbid thinking), but I don't want my stuff to be a burden for anyone to have to deal with. I don't want my loved ones to have to decide what was important to me and what was "just stuff". I want my grand kids to have scrapbooks that I made, not a room full of stuff that I was going to use to make them scrapbooks. Does this make sense to anyone else, or am I just having a moment? Either way, I feel a BIG purge coming to the Kruse household---anyone need any wrapping paper???

Lazy Monday

Today is my last day home of a five day off stretch. Back to work for four days starting tomorrow. I really do love working 10 hour days. I got a lot done here at home over the past couple of days, so today I get to do what I want to. I do have laundry to do (when don't I have laundry to do), which I have already been at for a couple hours now. My plans are to watch the Nascar race that was rained out yesterday, and to sit in my favorite chair and cross stitch. Hopefully I will get a lot of stitching done, I need to finish what I'm working on so I can get to work on some little projects that I want to do for Christmas. Wow, I can't believe that I'm thinking Christmas, but it will be here before we know it.

A Favorite of Mine

Here are the lyric's to one of my favorite songs:

It's not what you thought
When you first began it
You got what you want
Now you can hardly stand it though,
By now you know
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up

You're sure there's a cure
And you have finally found it
You think one drink
Will shrink you 'til you're underground
And living down
But it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up

Prepare a list of what you need
Before you sign away the deed
'Cause it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
So just...give up

I first heard this song on a commerical for one of my favortie shows on A&E, Intervention. It's now one of my all time favorites. It's called "Wise Up" and Aimee Mann sings it, give it a listen on You Tube.

Sunday For Me

Although I had to work on Sunday, 9/11, I couldn't get it out of my mind. I kept thinking about what had happened to our country on that day, and what has happened since. I'm afraid that we are going back to our old habits and something "like" that will happen again. Yes, there were a lot of ceremonies and reflection on Sunday, but what are we as people doing on a day to day basis? So many of us, myself included, are only concerned about our lives and the lives of those closest to us. I've been thinking about this for a while now, how selfish we are as a people. I can't think of any better example than my own workplace. We are a small department, only eleven plus two prn people, and I see it everyday. We do "work" together nicely, but we also have constant gossip and backbiting. I try to not become a part of it, but I'm human and I do get sucked in quite often. So my 9/11 "resolution" is to be a better person. To think about how my actions affect others and to do more for others. I do see rays of hope in my coworkers and I hope to help those rays grow by doing what is probably not expected but what is right.

August Staycation

My week at home is almost over and I really have accomplished very little. Not that I haven't enjoyed my days at home, but I need to get in gear these next three days. I had big plans and I've just kind of blown them off. I ended up going to Springfield on Tuesday with Kurt and Karen (for Zoe's birthday) and I have to go again tomorrow. My Mom is going along tomorrow and we'll be bringing Zoe home with us. My trip tomorrow is for a little work on my car. The ignition "sticks" from time to time and you have to literally beat the key (and try, try, try) until the darn thing will start. It's left me stranded and waiting on Doyle more than once in the last few weeks. The part was changed shortly after I bought the car but now I wonder if it really was since it is once again doing the same thing. Maybe they used a refurbished part but, this time I'm requesting a new part!! Nothing is more irritating than getting in a car and it not starting. It really has nothing to do with the motor, it's the switch itself, when it happens the key will not turn at all. It's like it's locked and you have to figure out the magic code to unlock it. Anyway hopefully it will be fixed tomorrow and it will be a worry of the past. Time to get busy on that list, I have to go back to work on Monday (yes, it's my holiday to work this year) and time is getting away from me!!!